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DEALING WITH ADDICTION |
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DEALING WITH ADDICTION |
It took me a while, to write my whole list.
I'm sure there are several things that I missed.
I tried to recall all the things I'd done rotten,
Things that I thought would be better forgotten.
I had to dig deep so my list was complete.
I had the desire to skip some and cheat.
The mem'ries I'd buried were now much alive;
Time that I dealt with them. Time for step five.
Time to admit them, to me, first of all.
Time for a detailed and total recall.
Had to be honest in what I confessed.
Had to get everything off of my chest.
Once we went thru it - myself, me and I.
I read it again as I looked to the sky.
I prayed God respond to each fault that I read.
I listened with patience, to hear what he said.
By now I was starting to gain understanding.
My guilt was decreasing - my hope was expanding.
I fin'ly was dealing with all my regret,
Learning from thoughts that once made me upset.
I now needed someone with whom I could share.
Someone who, likewise, knew grief and despair.
I had to find someone I knew I could trust,
Who wouldn't reveal what it was we discussed.
I took lots of time and was careful to find
someone experienced, thoughtful and kind,
Someone unjudging, who'd offer advice,
Someone who'd question me - make me think twice.
In finding this person, we sat and we spoke.
We sometimes were serious. Sometimes we'd joke.
We went through the wrongs on my list, one by one,
Discussing each one 'til we had them all done.
I felt such relief from discussing each deed!
The guilt I had carried I'd finally freed,
All from just simple and honest admitting.
Just one more step in my drugs and my quitting.