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DEALING WITH ADDICTION |
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DEALING WITH ADDICTION |
The people I'd wronged made an awful long list.
Sadly there's many I prob'ly had missed.
Took me a while to fin'ly get through it.
Others will come to me. I'll add them to it.
Once I felt confident I could stay sober,
I took my list and I looked it all over,
Using good judgment on where to start first.
Talked to the ones that I prob'ly hurt worst.
Timing was crucial in facing these facts.
It took all my courage admitting these acts.
Had to be prudent, to not be offending.
Had to stay humble through all my amending.
Knew that this task would be work and take time.
Had to face all my insensitive crime.
Slowly I chipped at my list, one by one,
Knowing I prob'ly would never get done.
Still every time that I dealt with this grief,
I felt a great sigh of tremendous relief.
People that made me, one time, paranoid,
I no longer sidestepped and tried to avoid.
I checked off the names as I went down the line,
Going to each one as I worked my step nine.
I carefully followed this step, to the letter.
Each time I did, I would feel a bit better.
Burdens that filled me with worry and fears,
Burdens I'd carried for many long years,
Somehow, amazingly, just disappeared.
Guilt in my conscience was totally cleared.
Then there were those, I knew not how to find.
Others, I just couldn't make up my mind.
Didn't dare mention old hardships and dirt,
in cases where somebody else might get hurt.
All I could do was keep giving my best,
as, all of these harm causing acts, I confessed.
It's nice winning back, long lost fam'ly and friends.
An awesome reward for some simple amends.